Birth Trauma Survivor and Maternal Health Advocate

Happy Birthday Miss J! And Happy Birthday to You Too.

Today is Miss J’s 3rd birthday. People often say that time flies when you have kids. For me, there have been many moments that dragged on and on with no end in sight. Sleepless nights. Cleaning and sterilizing bottles. Teething. Sleep training. There were other moments that seemed to happen overnight like when Miss J…

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One thing you can't hide – is when you're crippled inside.” John Lennon

I managed to doze off some time during the wee hours of the morning. Someone had opened the blinds and I woke up from the sun beaming down and warming my skin. The last thing I remembered was talking to Dr. B around 1am. He called me from his home to make sure that I…

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“Although she was giddy with exhaustion, sleep was a lover who refused to be touched….” ― Janet Fitch, Paint it Black

I wanted Miss J to lay next to me all night but the night nurse/army sergeant made Bobby put her back in the bassinet. That’s the thing about being a patient–you don’t get to make decisions, especially after a traumatic accident. Everyone not only tells you what to do, but also when and how to…

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Reunited with Miss J: A Few Pictures

Miss J is almost three years old now. Lately she is in the habit of getting out of her “big girl bed” every night and getting into our bed in the wee hours of the morning. There are times when this irritates me because a good night’s sleep is hard to come by nowadays. But…

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“Don't walk behind me; I may not lead. Don't walk in front of me; I may not follow. Just walk beside me and be my friend.” Albert Camus

I was hooked up to so many gadgets. Oxygen under my nose, IV’s in both arms, a catheter (yuck!) and random sticky circles on my chest connected to long cords. I was still afraid to close my eyes. Bobby and my best friend, Erica, were waiting in the hallway when I got off the elevator….

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“I have a hot memory, but I know I've forgotten many things too, just squashed things in favor of survival.” Iggy Pop

It was almost ten o’clock in the evening when the surgery was completed. I was relieved. Dr. Richmond was cautious to give me too much hope. He said that the surgery went well and that he would be back to check on me the next day. My throat was sore and I was groggy from…

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“Our chief want is someone who will inspire us to be what we know we could be.” Ralph Waldo Emerson

I had to take a break. I hadn’t watched “The Heart of Beauty” in a very long time until I shared it with you. At the time of filming last January, Miss J was 21 months old. Miss J has hit every developmental milestone on time, if not early. I thought about all the times I…

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The Heart of Beauty: The Video

As a make-up artist, I believe that in order to truly make someone feel beautiful, you have to look beyond the surface. You have to try and see what is in a person’s heart and ask, Who is this person? Where has she been? Where does she want to go? Who does she want to…

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