Birth Trauma Survivor and Maternal Health Advocate

“Red is one of the strongest colors, it’s blood, it has a power with the eye. That’s why traffic lights are red I guess, and stop signs as well… In fact,I use red in all of my paintings.” -Keith Haring

There was blood everywhere. Just hours before, I had been watching Seinfeld re-runs on the TV in the corner of my hospital room. The TV was turned off now and I was lying in bed, staring at my reflection in the TV. I could see my entire midsection down to my legs covered in red….

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"Before you were conceived I wanted you. Before you were born I loved you. Before you were here an hour I would die for you. This is the miracle of Mother's love." Maureen Hawkins

Dear Friends, Thank you for following my journey and supporting my blog. Before we move on to the next chapter of my birth story, I want to share with you some of my favorite pictures that were taken during the course of my pregnancy. Looking through them has brought back many great memories. I hope…

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“Birth is the sudden opening of a window, through which you look out upon a stupendous prospect. For what has happened? A miracle. You have exchanged nothing for the possibility of everything.” William MacNeile Dixon

The epidural numbed the pain of the contractions but I could feel the pressure building between my legs. I felt like my whole midsection was about to explode. I squeezed my legs together tightly. I was afraid that my baby would come flying out if I parted them a little. I could feel fluid trickling…

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"The belly rules the mind."-Spanish Proverb

April 18, 2010 It was a mild April afternoon, the sky was overcast and the temperature was in the mid-fifties. Every now and then, the sun peeked from behind the clouds. As we drove to the hospital we passed several new condo developments and shopping centers. I devoured the chicken sandwiches we made, ate some…

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PTSD: My Diagnosis

Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD) Post-traumatic stress disorder is an anxiety condition which can occur after you’ve seen or experienced a traumatic event  involving the threat of injury or death. Diagnosis is most commonly assigned to: War veterans, Victims of assault, abuse and rape, terrorism Survivors of natural disasters, crashes and accidents I was diagnosed…

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