Birth Trauma Survivor and Maternal Health Advocate

“Birth is the sudden opening of a window, through which you look out upon a stupendous prospect. For what has happened? A miracle. You have exchanged nothing for the possibility of everything.” William MacNeile Dixon

The epidural numbed the pain of the contractions but I could feel the pressure building between my legs. I felt like my whole midsection was about to explode. I squeezed my legs together tightly. I was afraid that my baby would come flying out if I parted them a little. I could feel fluid trickling…


“I don’t understand how a woman can leave the house without fixing herself up a little – if only out of politeness. And then, you never know, maybe that’s the day she has a date with destiny. And it’s best to be as pretty as possible for destiny.” — Coco Chanel

April 19, 2010 I had arrived at the hospital the day before with a face full of make-up and I intended to keep it that way.  It was now eight o’clock in the morning and after twenty hours of labor I had grown used to my enemy–the contractions. As uncomfortable as I was, I comforted…


"I begin to love this creature, and to anticipate her birth as a fresh twist to a knot, which I do not wish to untie." -Mary Wollstonecraft

My water broke at 12:30pm on April 18th, 2010. The night before, I had the best sleep I have ever had in my entire life. It was deep and peaceful, the kind of sleep that while you are sleeping you are somehow aware of how great of a sleep you are having. I slept until ten…